in case you wondered, the yarn-purchasing moratorium (any manufactured yarns on the primary retail market, that is) feels hard now. because of course the new fall stuff is showing all it's texturey, colored little faces these days.
i have been to my local and have been shown new things that the folks there were sure i would love. i've also been shown things that have finally arrived, for which i was at least the partial impetus in ordering them. no one is being smug. no one is being pandering. it has been suggested that things might be put aside for me. until i am ready.
and although i have seen things that tempted me, they would just sit in a bag -- i know that -- maybe even until the moratorium was up. now wouldn't it be silly to have bought them, in that case?
and, even though i joked around and said, well, maybe my family will just buy me yarn as christmas gifts... no, i don't think i want that either. i like this gnawing feeling -- over a new silk yarn, in particular -- and the feeling that i might miss out on it has sharpened my senses to what i do have to work with -- and to do just that.
however, there is this sadness, knowing i will not be walking across the park with a big brown bag full of skeins, a chai latte in hand, this october. i keep having the "poor me" moment of feeling like i can't knit a gift for ben this holiday season -- but then i remember, i don't have a gift in mind for ben, and if i do get an idea, i can buy on ebay, or buy handspun. that's been part of the deal all along -- but i've purchased nothing but two skeins of sock yarn that way.
for that matter, today i was itching to start something new, and dug into my bag to find more unopened skeins of various yarns than i remembered i had at all. not sweater-amounts or anything, but, a lot of yarn. yarn enough -- and the right yarn -- to complete a number of projects that do exist on the list.
still, i think i'm going to go see what's new this week. and just smell it.